My meds from Israel have finally appeared on USPS.com. They original email says it takes a few days, but I can't explain the relief I feel right now, knowing they are on their way. I picked up all my other meds from a local specialty pharmacy and spoke to them about getting the extras if I need, from them. They also gave me all the needles and other stuff that I needed and couldn't get from overseas.
But truthfully for all the times I hope for distractions during this time and other things to think about, what happened yesterday in Boston does not fulfill that need. The heartbreak and concern and fears about this incident fill about as much of my brain as my IVF future does. I actually find myself preferring to think about my timeline and my meds and the future potential side effects of the stims, rather than wanting to see the news or read facebook updates about Boston. It hurts to think about Boston. It hurts to see the pain, it hurts to see the hatred that has already started to pour out of people. I'm trying to avoid all news reports, because the scenes are just too painful. I find myself trying to avoid the sinkhole I fell into after 9/11. My body and my brain do not need nor can they afford that sadness. I love the fact that my forums at fertilityfriend.com are not discussing it. We have enough on our minds, enough sadness, enough struggle, and don't need to add to this place, this safe zone the tragedies of the world around us. I'm sure in all of the women's outside lives they are discussing and dealing with the devastation of Boston, but not in this place. ❤ Love these women and this site.
All my thoughts and prayers go out to the people of Massachusetts and the runners of the Boston Marathon and their friends and families.
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