Just breathe!!!! That's what I'm doing now.  and waiting.  My acupuncturist's, Denise, told me there would be lots of waiting and I'd have to get used to it.  I knew that the last time, but nothing ever felt right the last time, so its different this time.  I feel good.  It feels right.


So first Beta on 12dpo was 35.9, second beta on 15dpo ........   484!!!!!!! Now I'm just waiting for the 1st ultrasound.  Only 4 days until that, but I keep POAS everyday, just to make sure the line is still there and still just as dark if not darker.

wow

Great story to share!   A good friend of mine has been ttc for almost 2 years.  She hasn't spoken to her doctor yet and has been sort of temping and sort of using opks, nothing regular.   Last month, right before my IUI, I was hanging out with her and her husband and she asked what should she start with and I recommended at the start of her next cycle that she go for her CD3 bloodwork just to get things started with the dr.  Her husband mentioned that he keeps meaning to get his stuff checked since people have told him it could be him and easily fixed, I said yup, that's great go get your numbers checked.  And I tried to get her to sign up here, but I'm not sure that happened.  Back to the [b]Great[/b] part of the story.  Yesterday I called to check in and chat, wasn't ready to tell her about me, but wanted to find a time we could get together so I could tell her.  Asked how she was, if she had her CD3 stuff done.  She said no last cycle was 22 days and this one is 33, so she's just waiting for AF as it should be here any day.  About 3 hours later I got a picture message from her.  [b]BFP[/b]

Then I did the math, I'm on CD33 too.  We have the same due date!!!! I called her immediately and just said "ME TOO!!!"

7 months ago when I started this adventure, I told her that if was going to get pregnant, so were they and that we would do it together.  HA, I said it but I didn't think it would happen like this.

Here's hoping we all have sticky beans!!!!

Here we are again.

So its been awhile.  Surgery to remove the fibroid went very well.  It was much bigger than Dr. G thought it would be, but everything went perfectly.  As I found myself saying after the surgery, I had something taking up real estate that potential baby needed and now its all cleared out.  Woohoo!!

So 4th IUI or 1st since we resolved issues just happened this past monday, which makes me 5DPO.  Took Clomid days 5-9 for my progesterone issue.  So worked with getting my ovaries on target.  Funny thing, I thought without a Trigger, only one egg would ovulate, no matter what the clomid created.  Turns out, I was wrong!  Went for my day 15 u/s, and the first thing my RE said was "In all my years doing this I've only seen triplets twice on Clomid"  WHAT!!!!!  Of course to balance that out, my donor only had 5.5 milllion sperm, versus 14 million, back in April (when I got preg).  Hoping the 1/3 swimmers balances out the 3X eggs.  :)

Little symptoms that are probably not symptoms at all. No desire to eat chocolate, actually an anti-chocolate wave when I even think about a snack. So NOT like me. Love chocolate!!! But when I got preg back in April, I had the same anti-chocolate feelings. Then this morning crazy nauseas, drinking my morning sickness tea just cause it works, not because I am even starting to think this could be it. ITS WAY TOOOOO EARLY!!!!!

The nurse told me to test on day 16, ha ha ha.  If AF doesn't show up by day 12, then chances are she isn't.  And if anyone thinks I can wait past day9 to start testing, you be crazy.  I'm hoping to at least hold out until day 8.

I'll try to update again later this weekend.

Quarantine

So sperm donors donate and then their donations go into quarantine.  Not sure why or for how long, but that's how it works.  So last month thinking I was a go for the cycle, I purchased one vial a few days before ovulation.  Then the fibroid became an issue and that cycle was halted.  So, what do I do with the vial.  Part of the below mentioned Clomid effects showed up here.  I would have to store the vial, what would that cost!?!?  Turns out, not too bad considering what this whole process has been costing me.  $140 for 3 months.  Perfect.  Then I noticed that my donor was running low on stock.  So glad I jumped the gun and purchased the one vial.  I was told a new batch was being released from quarantine at the end of the month (May) or very early June.  Now I was just told that its not till end of July.  AGAIN thank goodness I jumped the gun.  At least I have the one vial, and he still has 8 left, but I don't want to buy more than I need just yet.  But if he drops down to less than 4 before my next cycle than I will have to splurge.

so much for the 2WW...how about the 2MW

what is the 2MW you ask.  Two Month Wait!  Yes after moving full speed ahead for 5 months, I had to screech to a halt these last two months.  So the M/C happened and with that came the HSG scan, which as expected showed that my tubes were open...woohoo, but that the fibroid we noticed in the earlier Ultrasounds could indeed be a problem with implantation and keeping a pregnancy.   Boo.  Hiss.

So...after taking 5 days of Clomid, days 5-9, then finding out the Fibroid had to be removed was not the greatest news.  The Clomid effects weren't horrible, until I got bad news, then I couldn't control the tears.  Every time I thought about the delay the tears would come.  I could not stop them, it was crazy, I would feel fine and the tears would just pour.  Anyway, my RE sent me back to my OB/GYN who is a fantastic surgeon and specializes in this kind of stuff and he was able to schedule my procedure, Myosure, 3 weeks later.  Yesterday to be exact.   Outpatient surgery, 2.5 hours at center and then my dad picked me up and brought me back to my parent's place.  Easy recovery, nothing too bad.  I was warned about cramps, but didn't feel much until this morning, because I was moving around so much more.  But overall, a really easy surgery and experience.  There were 2 fibroids not just one.   BUT the best news of all is that I got to TTC again next month.  No delay other than the cycle I'm in to recover.  So July is the restart to the process.

There's a reason this blog isn't public yet

Because you just never know.  It turns out attempt #3 didn't work.  Well it did, I GOT PREGNANT!!!! Which is huge, since now we know I can.  We being me, my doctors, my acupuncturist, etc.  But it wasn't  the right egg or the right month or the right anything, so we move on.  Wish it was as easy as it sounds, but I'm trying to push through.  And so far I am.  Next step is an HSG (xray to check my fibroid) and then possibly Clomid and the next IUI.  No clue when that will be as pregnancy tends to screw up the timing and all.   So for my very time accurate body, this will be a switch.

Back to wait and see, not that wait and see ever actually went away :)

Tired....

Yup, very tired today.  It doesn't help that I've been at work since 10 with nothing to do.  One of those days, waiting for one of my bosses to come work with me, but she hasn't made it into my room my yet.  Seriously want to go home and sleep :)  or just eat and eat and eat.  Which is weird since I had my first true true bout of MS this morning.  Up till now its just been nausea, but a wee bit more than that today.

Having my first cup of caffeinated tea since I found out, just too tired to not do it.  I know its lite on the caffeine since I checked it out when i was TTC so hopefully not too bad for me and the little one.

First U/S tomorrow.  I feel really good about things, but of course, trying to keep a realistic view going into it.  Grandma, Grandpa and Aunt Geri are all coming to the appointment.  Love that its been a family affair right from the start and looking forward to that continuing.

Oh, and I found a great baby book.  I haven't bought it yet of course, but all the pages are available to download, with a big "SAMPLE" written across them, but who cares, I can start writing little things down, and its great, you can add or take away pages, so I'm able to add "Single Mom" pages and remove all the ones that say "when WE decided to have you" or "What WE decided to name you"  or "How WE met"  And replace them all with mommy pages.  Its perfect and I can't wait till till I'm past the 1st Trimester and can buy it!!!!

That's it for now, about to fall asleep over my keyboard.