So I disappeared from the blog for a bit. Turns out this process is not so easy on the psyche. Last I wrote I was feeling all these wacky symptoms. They are just that...wacky symptoms...all in your head.
So the update...For attempt #2 my mom came with me to the doctor. AND for attempt #3 my dad came. I'm currently on day 4 of my 2WW on the 3rd attempt. When last months didn't work out I called my Dr. and asked what we can do to help next attempt, his answer was wonderful. "Let's just get you pregnant, I'm referring you to a fertility specialist" :)
So this past wednesday, my wonderful new doctor squeezed me in for my consult and my IUI all in one appointment. It was perfect. When I called to day I had my surge they squeezed me in. Amazing!!!
As everyone from a random friend to my acupuncturist said, I really am extremely fertile, even at 39. phew!!! so good to hear again and again though. My dad and I learned so much from the Dr, it was such a great consult and hopefully a successful IUI. One little issue turned up, but we have FX'd that this one worked so the issue won't really be an issue!
As to what the title of this post means... Since I started down this road I have had 3 day before IUI days. None have been smooth sailing, although this last one was much less crazed then the first two. The first one came very fast and due to my inexperience, much earlier than I expected. On the friday before, I found out my FSH levels were great and we should go for first attempt. So that weekend, we picked the donor (I think I wrote about that in an earlier post) Monday came with my first ever +OPK and President's day, so no doctor in the office to talk to. Called the sperm back and found out that i needed a signed piece of paper from my doctor in order to schedule a pick up my donor. WHAT? I lost it. Thought there's goes my first month. I'd left a few messages with my dr. already that morning and hadn't heard back, and it wasn't really an emergency, in terms of emergencies, but of course it was an emergency to me. Thankfully about 15 minutes after my mini meltdown, he called. Order was restored. I got him the paperwork, he sent it to the cryobank and I ordered and scheduled my P/U.
Day before #2 - wake up friday morning and POAS. No smiley face. about 2 hours later I POAS again. Side note, I found out that LH surges can come at anytime during the day, so I have made it my goal to catch it as close to when it happens as possible. Therefore when I'm at about CD6 I start testing 2X or 3X a day. For those of you who have gone through TTC, you know that ovulation kits are not cheap. I do order them from amazon and I'm on the subscribe and save plan so I save a few more cents, but still a lot of money on top of all the other expenses. But back to #2. I call my doctors office to schedule a saturday IUI and they tell me, he's out till tuesday, that he's at the doctors for something and they don't know what to tell me. Of course I lose it, albeit quietly but still start freaking out inside. I don't want to miss this cycle. I want to take advantage of ever cycle! They said that they would call me back once they spoke to him but that he was not available at the moment. I start calling random fertility clinics seeing if they'll meet me, and do the IUI for me on my first visit. That doesn't go so well! I'm still totally freaking out even though I know my doctor will come through and of course he does. next day me and my mom are in his office with just him, with attempt #2.
#3 - Not as insane but a little bit. WORK! I love my job, love what I do for a living. Love love love it. But at the moment I am not sharing my quest with anyone there. So all of sudden a deadline moves ahead a day which of course is right when I need to be at the dr's for #3. But I handled it, only a little tense for about an hour, but nothing like the first two months. But still not smooth sailing. If this month isn't it, I would really like a smooth easy prep day with me just making phone calls setting up p/u and then appointments and thats it!
But hopefully I won't need any more prep days! Hopefully this is it!
