Here we are again.

So its been awhile.  Surgery to remove the fibroid went very well.  It was much bigger than Dr. G thought it would be, but everything went perfectly.  As I found myself saying after the surgery, I had something taking up real estate that potential baby needed and now its all cleared out.  Woohoo!!

So 4th IUI or 1st since we resolved issues just happened this past monday, which makes me 5DPO.  Took Clomid days 5-9 for my progesterone issue.  So worked with getting my ovaries on target.  Funny thing, I thought without a Trigger, only one egg would ovulate, no matter what the clomid created.  Turns out, I was wrong!  Went for my day 15 u/s, and the first thing my RE said was "In all my years doing this I've only seen triplets twice on Clomid"  WHAT!!!!!  Of course to balance that out, my donor only had 5.5 milllion sperm, versus 14 million, back in April (when I got preg).  Hoping the 1/3 swimmers balances out the 3X eggs.  :)

Little symptoms that are probably not symptoms at all. No desire to eat chocolate, actually an anti-chocolate wave when I even think about a snack. So NOT like me. Love chocolate!!! But when I got preg back in April, I had the same anti-chocolate feelings. Then this morning crazy nauseas, drinking my morning sickness tea just cause it works, not because I am even starting to think this could be it. ITS WAY TOOOOO EARLY!!!!!

The nurse told me to test on day 16, ha ha ha.  If AF doesn't show up by day 12, then chances are she isn't.  And if anyone thinks I can wait past day9 to start testing, you be crazy.  I'm hoping to at least hold out until day 8.

I'll try to update again later this weekend.

Quarantine

So sperm donors donate and then their donations go into quarantine.  Not sure why or for how long, but that's how it works.  So last month thinking I was a go for the cycle, I purchased one vial a few days before ovulation.  Then the fibroid became an issue and that cycle was halted.  So, what do I do with the vial.  Part of the below mentioned Clomid effects showed up here.  I would have to store the vial, what would that cost!?!?  Turns out, not too bad considering what this whole process has been costing me.  $140 for 3 months.  Perfect.  Then I noticed that my donor was running low on stock.  So glad I jumped the gun and purchased the one vial.  I was told a new batch was being released from quarantine at the end of the month (May) or very early June.  Now I was just told that its not till end of July.  AGAIN thank goodness I jumped the gun.  At least I have the one vial, and he still has 8 left, but I don't want to buy more than I need just yet.  But if he drops down to less than 4 before my next cycle than I will have to splurge.

so much for the 2WW...how about the 2MW

what is the 2MW you ask.  Two Month Wait!  Yes after moving full speed ahead for 5 months, I had to screech to a halt these last two months.  So the M/C happened and with that came the HSG scan, which as expected showed that my tubes were open...woohoo, but that the fibroid we noticed in the earlier Ultrasounds could indeed be a problem with implantation and keeping a pregnancy.   Boo.  Hiss.

So...after taking 5 days of Clomid, days 5-9, then finding out the Fibroid had to be removed was not the greatest news.  The Clomid effects weren't horrible, until I got bad news, then I couldn't control the tears.  Every time I thought about the delay the tears would come.  I could not stop them, it was crazy, I would feel fine and the tears would just pour.  Anyway, my RE sent me back to my OB/GYN who is a fantastic surgeon and specializes in this kind of stuff and he was able to schedule my procedure, Myosure, 3 weeks later.  Yesterday to be exact.   Outpatient surgery, 2.5 hours at center and then my dad picked me up and brought me back to my parent's place.  Easy recovery, nothing too bad.  I was warned about cramps, but didn't feel much until this morning, because I was moving around so much more.  But overall, a really easy surgery and experience.  There were 2 fibroids not just one.   BUT the best news of all is that I got to TTC again next month.  No delay other than the cycle I'm in to recover.  So July is the restart to the process.

There's a reason this blog isn't public yet

Because you just never know.  It turns out attempt #3 didn't work.  Well it did, I GOT PREGNANT!!!! Which is huge, since now we know I can.  We being me, my doctors, my acupuncturist, etc.  But it wasn't  the right egg or the right month or the right anything, so we move on.  Wish it was as easy as it sounds, but I'm trying to push through.  And so far I am.  Next step is an HSG (xray to check my fibroid) and then possibly Clomid and the next IUI.  No clue when that will be as pregnancy tends to screw up the timing and all.   So for my very time accurate body, this will be a switch.

Back to wait and see, not that wait and see ever actually went away :)

Tired....

Yup, very tired today.  It doesn't help that I've been at work since 10 with nothing to do.  One of those days, waiting for one of my bosses to come work with me, but she hasn't made it into my room my yet.  Seriously want to go home and sleep :)  or just eat and eat and eat.  Which is weird since I had my first true true bout of MS this morning.  Up till now its just been nausea, but a wee bit more than that today.

Having my first cup of caffeinated tea since I found out, just too tired to not do it.  I know its lite on the caffeine since I checked it out when i was TTC so hopefully not too bad for me and the little one.

First U/S tomorrow.  I feel really good about things, but of course, trying to keep a realistic view going into it.  Grandma, Grandpa and Aunt Geri are all coming to the appointment.  Love that its been a family affair right from the start and looking forward to that continuing.

Oh, and I found a great baby book.  I haven't bought it yet of course, but all the pages are available to download, with a big "SAMPLE" written across them, but who cares, I can start writing little things down, and its great, you can add or take away pages, so I'm able to add "Single Mom" pages and remove all the ones that say "when WE decided to have you" or "What WE decided to name you"  or "How WE met"  And replace them all with mommy pages.  Its perfect and I can't wait till till I'm past the 1st Trimester and can buy it!!!!

That's it for now, about to fall asleep over my keyboard.

AHHHHH!!!!  4wks and 3days.  Yup.  IUI #3 worked.  So far at least.  Trying not to get too excited, since its so so early, but here we are.

A bit of a crazy week.  Started off saturday thinking AF arrived, only to see my temp spike on sunday and realize what a sec, that shouldn't happen at this point unless...

and yup there it was, a very very very faint 2nd line.  First beta test on monday 28.5, progesterone was still too low, so I found myself having to do intramuscular injections.  I'll my sister fill you in on the first!!!

Friday I had my second beta test and now I was at 106!!!!   So today was the next one and we were hoping for at least double, but I'm up to 288.  Woohoo!!!!

So on to the first ultrasound next monday.  Will try to come back at least once a week from here on out.

Day before is always hectic

So I disappeared from the blog for a bit.  Turns out this process is not so easy on the psyche.  Last I wrote I was feeling all these wacky symptoms.  They are just that...wacky symptoms...all in your head.

So the update...For attempt #2 my mom came with me to the doctor.  AND for attempt #3 my dad came.  I'm currently on day 4  of my 2WW on the 3rd attempt.  When last months didn't work out I called my Dr. and asked what we can do to help next attempt, his answer was wonderful.  "Let's just get you pregnant, I'm referring you to a fertility specialist" :)

So this past wednesday, my wonderful new doctor squeezed me in for my consult and my IUI all in one appointment.  It was perfect.  When I called to day I had my surge they squeezed me in.  Amazing!!!

As everyone from a random friend to my acupuncturist said, I really am extremely fertile, even at 39.  phew!!! so good to hear again and again though.  My dad and I learned so much from the Dr, it was such a great consult and hopefully a successful IUI.  One little issue turned up, but we have FX'd that this one worked so the issue won't really be an issue!

As to what the title of this post means...  Since I started down this road I have had 3 day before IUI days.  None have been smooth sailing, although this last one was much less crazed then the first two.  The first one came very fast and due to my inexperience, much earlier than I expected.  On the friday before, I found out my FSH levels were great and we should go for first attempt.  So that weekend, we picked the donor (I think I wrote about that in an earlier post) Monday came with my first ever +OPK and President's day, so no doctor in the office to talk to.  Called the sperm back and found out that i needed a signed piece of paper from my doctor in order to schedule a pick up my donor.  WHAT?  I lost it.  Thought there's goes my first month.  I'd left a few messages with my dr. already that morning and hadn't heard back, and it wasn't really an emergency, in terms of emergencies, but of course it was an emergency to me.  Thankfully about 15 minutes after my mini meltdown, he called.  Order was restored.  I got him the paperwork, he sent it to the cryobank and I ordered and scheduled my P/U.

Day before #2 - wake up friday morning and POAS.  No smiley face.  about 2 hours later I POAS again. Side note, I found out that LH surges can come at anytime during the day, so I have made it my goal to catch it as close to when it happens as possible.  Therefore when I'm at about CD6 I start testing 2X or 3X a day.  For those of you who have gone through TTC, you know that ovulation kits are not cheap.  I do order them from amazon and I'm on the subscribe and save plan so I save a few more cents, but still a lot of money on top of all the other expenses.  But back to #2.  I  call my doctors office to schedule a saturday IUI and they tell me, he's out till tuesday, that he's at the doctors for something and they don't know what to tell me.  Of course I lose it, albeit quietly but still start freaking out inside.  I don't want to miss this cycle.  I want to take advantage of ever cycle!   They said that they would call me back once they spoke to him but that he was not available at the moment.  I start calling random fertility clinics seeing if they'll meet me, and do the IUI for me on my first visit.  That doesn't go so well!   I'm still totally freaking out even though I know my doctor will come through and of course he does.  next day me and my mom are in his office with just him, with attempt #2.

#3 - Not as insane but a little bit.  WORK!  I love my job, love what I do for a living. Love love love it.   But at the moment I am not sharing my quest with anyone there.  So all of sudden a deadline moves ahead a day which of course is right when I need to be at the dr's for #3.  But I handled it, only a little tense for about an hour, but nothing like the first two months.  But still not smooth sailing.  If this month isn't it, I would really like a smooth easy prep day with me just making phone calls setting up p/u and then appointments and thats it!

But hopefully I won't need any more prep days!  Hopefully this is it!